Eulogy for my first baby, unborn
Feb 3, 2022
In the ICU waiting room, the clock’s tick
stirs my stomach. Nausea reminds me I already killed you,
months ago when I stopped your heart
with my stupid existence. Your heart stops again,
exactly one year later, while I’m watching
funny baby videos on Youtube.
I laugh so hard, I cry.
It’s midnight I’m working in the office.
